Life is like a string of pearls, the self being the thread and the pearls side by side are life experiences, births and deaths beings a continuum, all opportunities for growth in consciousness.
-Barbara Findeisen
The winding mountain road seemed to have no end. The bamboos towering over it, formed natural tunnels, casting their quivering shadows on the cracked and thirsty asphalt. Our car slowly and carefully went up and down until it finally reached its destination in Utuado, an area in the central part of Puerto Rico.
An undulating field stretched out in front of us with unusual monoliths wearing surfaces that Taino natives of the island, long ago, carved various images on. Windingly arranged monolithic stones, as archeologists say, gave shape to what were the fields for ball games and ceremonies.This area, known as Caguana, sacred to the Taino people who inhabited the island from 1100 BC until the 15th century when the Spanish conquerors set foot on its soil, is surrounded by hills covered with dense tropical vegetation. A Cemi form is hidden in that landscape and Cemi signified a divine energy that the Taino natives were associated with. The Tanamu river is in the immediate vicinity of this mystical place. All the elements are present in such ancient places - people used to choose very intelligently the locations they would settle in.
Thus, stepping on this ground that preserves the footprints of many people throughout centuries and eras, something unusual began to happen in my body: chills, strong emotion, tears and images began to line up. This time, pictures from one of my lives in this region. Even though by then I had flashbacks of past lives, they had never been this strong and tangible. Sitting on the surface near one of the fields surrounded by stones, I saw myself as a young female person standing silently in front of her tribe whose chief was her father. In order to make a settlement and peace with another tribe, that girl was given to an older man, as a wife. No one spoke a word. The girl, silent and petrified, but determined not to show her feelings; the father and mother - silent... even the Cemi hill and the moon were silent... all in deep silence, voice and jaws sealed. It had to be lived through, it had to be done. What is the use of showing emotions, whining and resisting? Simply, the power of the unwritten law was stronger and set in stone. A promise meant everything and it must not and could not be broken. The option of offending and resisting simply did not exist.
The only one struggling in silence was my younger brother, who wanted to do anything to save me from my fate. That boy was now standing next to me, my friend who was puzzeled while looking at me, not being able to understand the cause of my emotional reaction.
I stayed on Caguana for a short time - much shorter than I had planned. The body was weak and painful, and the symptoms of a cold appeared within an hour. By the time I got home, I can already say that I was sick, with severe pain in my muscles and with a feeling of "broken bones". A big emotional reaction followed me all the way home... tears filled my eyes and I was thinking "how could they?"
This is one of many past life experiences that have emerged from the subconscious in this life. How did I know that I wasn't imagining things and that this was all true? In the above-described case, the physical symptoms were enough to prove that something happened on that soil, in that space vortex, whenever. What confirmed this experience, along with the other that preceded as well as followed, all had a shared theme - not only shared between each other, but also with this life - the feeling of helplessness and that there is nothing I can do to change something or someone and their attitude towards me. These are deep patterns and programs one cannot get rid of easily. One of the reasons for that is that they lasted for a very long time, much longer than this life, and were repeated many times, with each experience adding an even stronger layer of accompanying emotion - fear, anger, guilt or disappointment.
Here, a wider tapestry of patterns that weave our experiences, life after life, opens up to us. Emotions and mental conclusions, beliefs and physical states are passed on from life to life, until we finally become aware of and dismantle them.
We can say - well, I'm already working on these things, on childhood traumas, on my wound and I've already visited that place a million times in the last 20-30 years... how much longer?
Just when we get to that question and we no longer see a way to move away from a place in a given problem, we need to know that it is about something much further that has been repeated many times. It's time to visit past lives, clean the residue of emotions that we carry for hundreds of years and see the ways of dying and our last thoughts that at the moment of death give the starting note to the next life.
And it goes on, round and around…
And that core is not a helpless being that has no influence on its own life and the world around it. Once a core of light, love and wisdom shines from each of us, this planet will surely experience a transformation from which it will never return to the narrow place of yesterday, of today... of past times. Through regression, we are really able to leave the past where it belongs - in the past, and not carry it in our astral body into the present and future life.
Revisiting places like this in our own timeline, seeing the experiences we've had and the emotions we've felt, understanding the roles of people we know (and have always known) will, at some point, lead to lessons learned, a change in perspective and liberation from Samsara – the wheel of birth and death.
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